i seriously need to express myself.
i'm keeping everything to myself.
i have no one to trust.
perhaps the word trust is not even in my dictionary.
i might even kill myself if i can't take it anymore.
as i used to say, my smile is my biggest lie.
people may think that i am a very cheerful person but i am not.
i get hurt easily too.
i just don't express myself much.
i've always treated you as my best friend but i don't think that you do.
i've always trusted you but i am suddenly losing all my trust in you.
its not that u told anyone my secrets
its that i don't think anyone in this world is trustworthy.
what have happened to you?
you weren't like that since we first met.
we were such close friends during the first few months.
maybe too close that you had misunderstood me.
maybe your opinion of me has changed after the misunderstanding between us.
i tried explaining things to you, hoping that you would understand how i feel.
maybe it didn't work.
perhaps you think that i am always joking.
perhaps you think that i'm getting too irritating.
things have changed drastically since i entered bhss.
there's no one that i can talk to in bhss.
at least i had anisiah in bhps
but now that she's gone
i might not be able to take it anymore.
anisiah, i miss you truckloads.
pehaps i need more time to adapt in bhss.
i think that i'm getting emo.
i starting to get annoyed after hearing too much laughter.
someone, please save me.
if u think that i am refering to you in the above,
please do not think that i am angry at you.
i am just trying to express myself.
perhaps you think that i am over-reacting but that's okay.
people have different opinions on different things.
people think differently.
please don't get angry after reading this.
please don't hate me.